Being with Brad has made me think about a few things. Family, babies, the future. And Friends. Its amazing how a person can help another person and treat them out and then have them back stab you in the same second. People are crap and I realize now that they will never change. They will never be different no matter where you go or who you are. People will always look out for themselves and thats the way it should be. No one cares about me and I only care about a limited few. But you know what...there are a billion people living on this planet and for everyone to care about one another is impossible. So I am grateful to have friends but I am also grateful to have myself. My friends are not more important to me than myself, so if I have to drop them to look out for myself...then thats the way it is.
Its a shame, because I believe I can be a good friend. I like to help people and do things for them. But as we say...OH WELL!
Currently, I am taking tequila shots and feeling good about myself with my love, Brad. It doesn't matter that a former friend told me to kill myself, it doesn't matter that my ex told me that he hates me, it doesn't matter that my uncle doesn't even acknowledge that I exist. What matters is I am happy with myself and I am happy where I am.
As the Comedian (my favorite) said in Watchmen: "God save us all".
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