Frustration

Ok, so I have a question to just throw out there..

Why is it when I want help, its almost impossible for me to get it; yet when I just want to end it, I can't get away from help.

I'm so sick of this.  All I want is help.  I need medication, counseling and just a chance to go through life without wanting to hurt myself. FOR ONCE. But nope, its not possible for me.  Theres no help out the for me. At least thats how the guy from the Mental Health Association made me feel.  No I don't have insurance.  If I had insurance, I would not be in the predicament I am currently in.

This is so irritating.

Screw psychatrists, screw doctors, screw insurance.

“Remembered for setting the world on fire…”

Mental Health Icon:  Edie Sedgwick (1943 - 1971)

One of Andy Warhol's Superstars, she was a beautiful and unique woman and not to mention a popular muse for many fashion designers in the 60s.  She died from a barbituate overdose at the age of 28.  I think of her as an idol because much like my life, she seems to be tossed around by the man she truly and desperately fell in love with.  He crushed her and was abandoned by her only true friend, Warhol.  She was plagued with many psychological demons and was admitted to several mental hospitals throughout her life.  She seemed to be getting better after she married Michael Post, a man she met while in rehab but her sobriety didn't last long and continued drinking and abusing drugs which in turn caused her death.

Here's a scene that gave me the idea to chop off all my hair in '08 after leaving Milwaukee.  Also includes the scene where she meets Bob Dylan who is the aforementioned "love of her life".

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