Again?

Am I not allowed to be sad every once in a while. It's really irritating when I can't even be sad and pretend in public because it's the easiest thing to do. I come home and instead of comfort, I get suspicious and accusing eyes.

Those who understand, those who know, will never let me know they know. No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I beg. My words are like water. For a split second, you feel it, but soon it all evaporates and its just a memory of what was once there.

So where am I? Spiraling down the rabbit hole. Chasing the white rabbit that I seem to never come close to. Drink me, eat me.

One day I will make it out of Wonderland and when I do I hope that there will be someone on the other side to lend a hand and lift me out. One day....some day....

YAY!!!!

Happy Birthday to me! I'm 24 years old today! I'm feeling ok... a little down because I expected a call from someone miles away who didn't call. Maybe he thought I'd laugh at him and hang up but I wouldn't. I would be happy. :/

Anyway, Disney tomorrow. Memories.

It's never been easier to afford an annual pass to Universal Orlando

It's never been easier to afford an annual pass to Universal Orlando

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Unwind before the holidays at Universal Orlando

Unwind before the holidays at Universal Orlando

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Exhausted!

Happy Halloween! Don't you love my boyfriend's cat Horatio as Horatia? She's a spicy flamenco dancer and shows no mercy on the dance floor!

Hahahahah!

So, as you can tell, I've been a busy busy gal. I have my Examiner.com page, my Hubpage, school, and work. It's been rough!

So, today is Halloween and there's a full moon. Therefore, I'm staying in. Too many crazy people in the world for me to be wandering aimlessly outside. I sprained my ankle today at work. We had our Howl-o-ween party and it was okay. Turn out was poor but we had a good time regardless.


I can't wait until my birthday. It will be soooo much fun. Perhaps we will get to go to Universal as well. Right now the plan is Disney and Arabian Nights. I'm excited! Two more weeks till my b-day!

Sofie is pouting now, she had to wear her sexy French maid outfit for the party and since then she's had this attitude. It was cute though. I liked it. I'll have to post the picture later. Now, I need sleep. Too much work for me to do and I'm so not ready for all of it. :(

Universal Orlando makes the holidays extra special for Florida residents

Universal Orlando makes the holidays extra special for Florida residents

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Review of Zombieland

Don't forget to visit my Hubpage to see reviews of movies I've recently seen! The newest one is Zombieland (2009).

Also, make sure you visit my Examiner.com page where I am the Orlando Universal Studios Examiner!

Oh yeah, that's right, I'm doing the writing thing part time now.

Just when you thought HHN was safe again: Rocky Horror Picture Show is back!

Just when you thought HHN was safe again: Rocky Horror Picture Show is back!

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Who needs 'em?

People are crappy. I hate them. Today, I was told that I should just go "finish the job I tried to do twice already", which made me think about why I even care about some people in my life.

Being with Brad has made me think about a few things. Family, babies, the future. And Friends. Its amazing how a person can help another person and treat them out and then have them back stab you in the same second. People are crap and I realize now that they will never change. They will never be different no matter where you go or who you are. People will always look out for themselves and thats the way it should be. No one cares about me and I only care about a limited few. But you know what...there are a billion people living on this planet and for everyone to care about one another is impossible. So I am grateful to have friends but I am also grateful to have myself. My friends are not more important to me than myself, so if I have to drop them to look out for myself...then thats the way it is.
Its a shame, because I believe I can be a good friend. I like to help people and do things for them. But as we say...OH WELL!

Currently, I am taking tequila shots and feeling good about myself with my love, Brad. It doesn't matter that a former friend told me to kill myself, it doesn't matter that my ex told me that he hates me, it doesn't matter that my uncle doesn't even acknowledge that I exist. What matters is I am happy with myself and I am happy where I am.

As the Comedian (my favorite) said in Watchmen: "God save us all".

Can't Stop Till You Get Enough

So, I've begun to love TV again. I'm so excited about my shows now. It's amazing because I haven't had this feeling in such a long time.

I'm excited for Wedensdays because of America's Next Top Model
I'm excited for Thursdays for FlashForward and Grey's Anatomy
I'm excited for Fridays for Brothers, Modern Family, and CougarTown.

EDIT: Maybe not so much Brothers and CougarTown.

I'm so happy that TV is back for me.

Time for Grey's. Here's a fun video.

Memories..on the corners of my mind

So Brad and I have moved into our own place here in nasty ole Kissimmee. Okay, so its not that bad but I'd rather be somewhere else. Somewhere with snow and where the leaves change. I miss Wisconsin.

Now that we've moved out of that disgusting house of a person I refuse to name...our relationship has really turned into something else. Not that it was bad before but I feel more like I want and need to be around him more. It's weird cause usually when you're around someone so much you get tired of them.

I think about the past alot. Before I came back to Florida. And yes I miss it sometimes, but then I remember when me and Brad had our first date and also, I remember the reason why I had to come back to Florida.

I think mostly I miss being skinnier, more carefree, and having less responsibility. Now I have to pay my own bills, budget, go to the store, make decisions, and actually WORK for a living to actually sustain a normal life. As I always say, maybe if I lose weight I'll feel much better.

But we saw how well that worked out before right?

Stupid Stupid Stupid

Ok I know its been a while since I've written anything but its only been what 20 plus days and I already broke the phone I just got to replace the phone I broke.  I'm so terrible with phones its not even funny.  I don't understand what goes on in this beautiful head of mine.  I should be seen never heard, eh?

Whoa, a little canadian there.

So I found out a close friend of mine is expecting a young'n and I'm kinda excited.  Maybe cause its a girl or maybe cause its a baby but I am happy for her despite what situations I've been through in the past with babies.  My mom got all weird and started talking about sex and I had to just pretend I had something to do.

Sofie has been going to work with me for the past few days.  She's a little weird though.  She doesn't really like playing with other dogs but has the greatest time by herself.  Then when big dogs bark she does this funny eye squint that I love.  She makes me want to squeeze her cute little face.

I've got a myspace again, unfortunately, or finally...whichever.  I don't know.  I only decided to get it because I actually feel ok with having my crap posted up for all to see and lust after.  I just hated having it when I was really depressed cause there were people on there who would take advantage of my feelings at the time and also cause everything you never wanted to know is on there and will dig at you till you die slowly.  Great Networking tool Tom.

Frustration Constipation

Everything has just gone bonkers in the past few days.  My phone has completely imploded, my car is a jerk, I'm getting sick, I haven't slept, I'm having social issues, and now at this current moment I am sitting here waiting to get out of jury duty.  This is the second friggin time I've had to do this and I cannot will myself to be optimistic so I'm entertaining myself right now with my laptop.  

After jury duty now I have to go out and buy a new phone because the dang thing won't even pretend to turn on.  I'm so frustrated with the whole situation because I was waiting until my contract was up to go ahead and 

upgrade.  But now it seems that I have to pay the extra amount because I have absolutely no phone and no way for work to contact me and no way to call if something happens.  Hopefully AT&T can fix my phone or at least give me a Pantech Duo (or something with a QWERTY keyboard) for under $100.

Sofie had another tick on her last night.  Its just another friggin thing added to my pile of ridiculousness.  I just want to go to sleep for hours and hours.  I'm so sick of sleeping one hour and then downing a Red Bull because I don't have the time to even think about a good night's rest.  Even last night my dream was about me having to wake up.  WTF?  School starts in a week, I have no books, I'm completely lost and completely annoyed with the world.  Everyone sucks and I just want to punch bunnies in the eye.